Seems a bit dramatic, right?!? Well, in my case it kind of is. Let me explain…
Like I mentioned a few days ago, an intense pull for change was happening and I needed to make sense of it. As I continued to drive north on Highway 1, I was able to sit in silence and feel what was happening and how I wanted to react to it.. Do I want to doubt and ignore, or ride the waves? This pull was happening and there was no way that I had the energy to pull away from it, so I surrendered.
During my time with Riz, he pointed out that it all comes down to choices. Have you ever asked yourself if you chose this life? Did you choose your parents? Did you request to live this life in a previous life? Did you choose your life partner before your birth? You may have your answers, but how do you know they are true. Will we ever know if we chose this life or not? No, probably not, but we do have a choice in what to believe.
Growing up, I used to always question why I was given this life. Why was I separated from my birth family? Why am I different and why am I suffering?
Like most, I was told to play the cards I was dealt. Looking back now, playing the cards I was dealt allowed sorrow and pain to slip in because I didn’t have any control over what cards I picked. Nobody asked me what I wanted in this life, so I was left with how to make the best of what I was given. I didn’t know how to do that so I was lost.
It wasn’t until Riz asked me, “How would you feel if you did choose this life and your circumstances?” I sat there for a moment and I felt a shift of weight within my heart. What if I did choose this life before my birth? To say that I chose this life or not cannot be proven, so why not take control and say that I did choose this life of being an adoptee.
The shift within opened me up to so many more possibilities. If I did choose to be adopted in this life before my birth, then that gives me the power and control to use my experiences as I please instead of falling victim to the confusion and pain of what was given to me. I am not saying that my confusion and pain just suddenly perish and became non-existent, but now I seem to have control over what I do with the confusion and pain that comes with being an adoptee. To say the least, I felt empowered!
Riz followed up by telling me that I was a storyteller in my past lives in one way or another and that I wondered what it was like to be adopted. It all started to make sense to me. I chose to live this life to find out what being an adoptee is all about, so now that I am experiencing it first hand, I am here to tell my story.
Huh, come to think of it, I guess I have been telling my story all along through sharing my film and now this blog. 🙂
Now that I am home safely and getting ready to move on with my life, I am confident to say that I feel settled and comfortable believing that this life is what I asked for and I have no reason not to tell my story. Who knows, my shift with may lead to a shift in my physical world very soon.
Coming across this photo a few days ago confirmed to me
that I am on the right path.
2 thoughts on “My Rebirth”
Nisha, I am so glad you are sharing your thoughts via your blog. I love this shift that has happened – this can make all the difference. I am trying it on for myself as well, too. What if I chose it all? It does feel different. Looking forward to reading more. oxo Susan
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Thank you Susan for reading! This shift and taking back my power in a sense makes a huge difference. It has taken me out of the passenger seat and placed me in the driver’s seat. Where I’m headed is so much more clear now. Meeting all of you wonderful men and women at Pact camp has also changed my life to where I have a safety net and the approval to speak up, so thank you! XOXO, right back atcha!